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Name: Rebekah
Location: Syracuse, New York, United States
Birthday: 5/7/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: God, family, Northside Baptist Church, mission trips, learning, painting and sketching, photography, volleyball, swimming, choir, food, Lord of the Rings, Stargate SG-1, Justice League, mythology, beaches/ocean, wildlife...I like a lot of things!
Expertise: art and working on psychology
Occupation: Student
Industry: art...not professional
Message: message me
Website: visit my website
AIM:  WWBM4evr
Member Since:
8/17/2005
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| Well...I could go on and on about Christmas and what a wonderful time we all had and how blessed we were...but it all seems so redundant after the New Year. Another year is here. I wonder if it will be different from last year? I'll be back at school in a few days. I have mixed feelings about that. On the one hand, I miss my schedule, on the other hand - I'm really gonna miss my family. Everyone starts the new year saying "this year, I'm gonna do ____ and it's gonna be awesome, bla, bla, bla". I've been looking forward to starting the new semester, buckling down on my work, hitting the gym and/or pool 5 days a week, and working my butt off with Pioneer. I prolly will do those things too...for the first few weeks. But in the end, this is what it boils down to: MAKING time for friends.
Everybody is always telling you to put grades and work before all else. You need to spend X amount of time doing homework and you need to work full time to get your college bills paid off. I'm not saying that it's a bad thing - grades are important, and being in debt is no fun ride. But here's the thing. These are years that I'm never going to get back. These are years of freedom for me - I don't have hungry children pawing at my legs or an overworked husband stressed from the responsibility of providing for his family. So many people my age are losing these precious years because they are stressing over getting the right grades for the right job for the right paycheck for the right house for the right retirement. I care about those things too, but I'm not going to sit here at 19 years old and stress over my "future". Other people are stressing about finding "Mr. or Mrs. Right". Here's my thoughts on that: when God is ready to bring my guy into my life, he will. Period. I'm not gonna worry about him or waste my time pursuing this guy and that guy hoping he's "the one". I want to be friends with everybody. And sure, let's not kid ourselves - I'm gonna look, and pay more attention to certain people and even date guys. But if I lose one, that just means that God has someone even better for me...even if that notion seems impossible at the time. No more broken hearts - that chapter is closed.
So this year - here's the one thing that I'm going to commit to - and it won't be hard because I do it all the time. I am going to make time for my friends. I don't care if I have to stay up till three in the morning a few nights this semester if it means that I get to go to a movie and make memories with people that I love and who love me back. I'm not going to waste time pursuing the affections of people who's love is conditional. I'm going to keep things right with my family - even if that means biting my tongue and not saying all those things that I want to say. This year, I am going to LOVE...with all my heart.
I watched two movies in the last 48 hours. The first was "The Pursuit of Happyness" (spelled wrong on purpose). It's about a guy who works his fingers to the bone to provide for the child he loves and in the end gets the job that gets the money that gets the house that they need. The second movie was "Click", which is about a guy who had a great life and fast forwards it till he gets to the better life only in the end realizing that he had the good life all along. I liked the second movie better. The first movie made it seem as though he had to get the job to be happy. And his circumstances were worse that Adam Sandler's in "Click", but still - he had his son all along and that was something to be happy about. Sandler realized in the middle of the movie that his family who made him happy and he spent the rest of the movie making things right. THAT is how I want to live this year, and the next and the next. I am going to be grateful for the happiness that I have and friends and the family that are mine. And for a God who loved me enough to die for me and then give me the blessings on top of that.
<3 Bekah
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| Ah, life is grand. I am soooooooo happy to be back home. I missed it so much. I missed the smell of Mama's kitchen, and the warmth of my bedroom after the heat's been on. I missed my queen sized mattress. I really missed my roomy shower that I share with exactly 0 people. I missed my nieces and nephews throwing their arms around me as soon as they run through the door. I missed my futon. I missed the Batcave and all the superhero/LoTR/PoTC/Narnia posters. I missed my books and being able to leisure read. I missed having my own toothbrush holder. I missed my halogen lamp that I can warm my hands under when my fingers get cold from typing. I missed my Brazilian hammock chair. I missed my 32'' TV with digital cable and a DVR...and my couch. I missed watching Simon and Simon on lazy afternoons when there's nothing else on. Yeah...I missed my home.
<3 Bekah
P.S. Stay tuned next week for "things I do not miss from school". ...the fire alarm that sounds like the freaking Blitz.
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| Sisters are amazing. Especially older sisters. They have this knack for expressing their love and concern for their younger siblings in bizarre ways though. I'm not sure if it's that they don't trust us to solve our own dilemnas or if the vantage point of looking back over the years makes them want to encourage us to take more risks and not miss out on life. I'm not really sure...but I love my sister! ...even if she did pretty much induce a panic attack for me last night.  So here's to all the meddling sisters of the world - may they continue to make our lives that much more interesting. 
<3 Bekah
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| Some people just confuse me. Just when you think that you've got them figured out - what they think, how they feel - they do something totally contradictory to what you were thinking. They say one thing and then their actions say something different. It's so frustrating. You want to be mad at them - but you know it's your own fault for not just asking them outright. *sigh* I give up.
<3 Bekah
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| I need a break from life. This is the most stressful time of the year by far. Not only is Christmas just around the corner with all the shopping and the wrapping and getting the whole family together and all that jazz - but there's also this little thing called finals to be done first before you can get to all that. Luckily, one of my classes doesn't have a final - but the two others that have accumulative finals make up for that in abundance. Furthermore, there's all the little stressors such as personal drama and potentially unwanted friendship situations that randomly come up every once in a while during the semester. Well about 5 of them decided to drop themselves in my lap right NOW. When it rains, it pours, so they say. Ah well...what can you do? You know though, I can't complain. The stress does keep you on your toes all semester and it prevents you from being idle. And the friendship dramas that occur are all just little foreshadows of even more exciting things to come. Who knows? It's all just a part of the crazy game called life.
<3 Bekah
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